| | I am the foot fuckin' master. I got my technique down and everything, I ain't be ticklin' or nothin'. | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment   |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | Gone. | | Time: | 07:56 pm |
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| smoking way too much... I should really learn to cut back.
I cant control it. Maybe I just like it because its old, recognizable.
Oh well, whats done is done i suppose. Do you ever stare at the tv when its on, yet get nothing out of it? I do that alot. Its a bit sad but i guess it has its perks.
What should i do now? Rot in the shadows where the sam i once new dwells. I could reach out and touch her and grab her and reel her in. I know her... i miss her. but she was once me and now she isnt. I knew me then. I dont know me anymore. striving to be something im not. Actually, i have no real outline for the person that i am striving to be. It sings my name in my ear. whispers are all around me... I jerk my head to spot them yet i still miss who is saying things to me. human...unrecocnizable to me. to you, to anyone. I want me...ME. who is that though? where is she? | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | english | | Time: | 01:08 pm |
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| Sometimes I wish that I were english... Maybe I just wish I had an english accent...either way, english...
So, Kendra is hot...too hot...way way WAY too hot. But, pleaaaassse people, who doesnt know that? Wow, I am too hot for this journal...
I want to sing...thats what I will do...
PEACE! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Isn't it weird how a tear can fall from your eyes, yet it never runs dry? It just dissapears in the air? Kind of like the care that first brought the tear.
Damn I'm hot. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | left over crack | | Security: | | | Subject: | Leave me | | Time: | 07:21 pm | | Current Mood: |  crappy |
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| Today was weird... strange... I came to the conclusion that my boss is an ass hole. I told him what happened this weekend so he could understand a few things... and he didnt even care. Heartless bastard I would say. I dont know... i shouldnt say that but things must be said.I need to quit smoking. But, i dont want to. My mom cried again. made me sad... and mad...
listen to the voices within, they will sing your favorite song. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | heat | | Time: | 10:35 am |
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| So hungry...
I went shopping yesterday for my prom dress/accessories/shoes.
My dress is REAL nice... I AM REAL proud of it...
Anywho...here i am in this library, evidently i am bored as usual.
No real motive to be here except the fact that i have to and if i ever want to leave this place for good, i must pass.
Well aint that a slap to your bitch... Who knew.
Death is hard and unfair. How do you deal with it? what do you say? will anything help...
i GUESS like in most movies, time is the answer.
Time heals everything...or so I am told.
I do believe it though. one must c l ing to the small hope which stabilizes their sanity.
I must be strong for those who need me to be . They need me more than i need myself and i happy to be of service because i love them so. I love emily. Emily, i love you. and i miss you so much and i cant wait to see you. you are so beautiful and the greatest person i have ever known and ever will know. I love you...
MWAH!
*SAM* | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | ... | | Time: | 09:41 pm |
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| | Why am I so hard to love? AM I that difficult? I am sad and lonely... please dont bother...it wont work anymore... whoever thought i would get this sick of life and existence? | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So life is moving right along.
Things are getting much better and
I can definitely see the light in the distance...
It is getting closer each day and I am so thrilled.
Anywhosywhatsits....Haha <---- that was funny...
Well to me it was funny OK? OK! GOOD!
OKay, im done with that...
I miss my emily...sniffle sniffle. I love her so
but today she seemed very sad... i hate it when she
is sad because she is such a beautiful person...
But, even when she is sad she is definitely still
beautiful.
Anyways, my mummy(yes, I meant to spell it with a "U") was crying to me today and said that she has a miserable life...
it makes me sad, very sad to see her cry...
I love her soo much and i wish everyone could know h ow beautiful she is... i love her...
well, I MUST go eat some spaghetti my mum just made...
*-sam-* | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | .... | | Time: | 01:06 pm |
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| Breaths are slow, stares are long
Quiet times and loud songs...
Driving alone, its real dark
living alone , wheres my mark?
Listening or talking
its always either one...
Smiling or laughing,
i wish it were that one...
Silent and still,
it all fades away,
but look! Theres the light, its coming my way. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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